Try Tri Again

I’ve tried this before. I’ve decided I want to do a triathlon. I bought ‘Triathlon Training for the Time-Crunched Athlete’ and never found time to read it.

Now, I’ve come to terms with the fact that I simply don’t have time to do this. I don’t have time to train properly and develop the necessary swimming and cycling skills to effectively complete a triathlon.

It’s amazing how, sometimes, realizing how futile and impossible something is…makes you dig deep and find determination to pull off the impossible.

This time, I’m going to make it happen. I am going to complete an Olympic Triathlon to start, and make it to a Half Ironman in the first half of 2020. One way or another, this will be the time that it happened.

Living: Dead or Alive

Life means something different at 48 years of age than it did just a few short years ago. I’ve started to ponder more frequently what the next years will look like.

I’ve developed a sense of safety and routine in my little box. I do things that many would be terrified to do, but they no longer terrify me. I see things that once looked boring to me, they no longer look boring.

I’m pretty sure I can find a way to enjoy the rest of my years in this box if I need to….but if I do, am I alive or am I dead? Or am I neither?


Notes to self, on self

It’s been an odd few years. Nothing is as it was expected to be, nor is anything as it seems.

I’m not the kind of person I think of as being tattooed. I never dreamed I’d have visible modifications of any form made to myself. Yet, in the past three years, twelve very visible tattoos have appeared on my arms. Three more are planned. Once these three are in place, I think I’m done.

Daily, someone asks me what the tattoos mean. When I’m in a bad mood, I point out that they’re words and recommend an investment in a dictionary for a deep understanding. The real answer to that question, however, is that they’re simply reminders for me. Reminders of who I need to try to be, reminders of things that I’ve done wrong, reminders of who I wish I was, reminders of things that didn’t happen, reminders of things that did happen, and reminders that there is always a tomorrow.

  • Discipline
  • Willpower
  • Aequitas
  • Veritas
  • Destiny
  • Nevermore
  • Dolorem Ipsum
  • Forevermore
  • Fortuna
  • Thanatos
  • Perception
  • Reality
  • (As Above – So Below) – coming soon
  • Memento Mori
  • Sui Generis

No pretty tattoos, and no tattoos bragging about accomplishments. Simply, notes to myself – on myself, as to who I want to be and why I am who I am.